Only 9 days until I make another huge life change. Geeze, can't I ever just hold still for a minute? Nope!
I'm going back to Austin. I know I keep rambling on about "Austin this" and "Austin that", but I want you guys to understand it's not really "Austin" that I'm so excited about. It's what Austin stands for to me. Maybe your Austin is Cincinnati or Denver, or your dog for all I know... To me Austin will be my spring board into my future plans, my future life, the more "adult" and "responsible" Meg. (And I know what you guys are thinking. "Yeah right! How is she going to be more responsible with all that Lonestar and Shiner bock beer, and rebellious country music floating around?) Well, I'll tell ya I'm only going out every OTHER night!
To move things along and to be prepared this time, (I no longer do the "show up and pray" technique when I move somewhere), I'm doing the usual craigslist searches, and contacting people to see if they would consider a crazy asian woman who can't cook to be a possible candidate for a roommate. I'm also going over how many holey t-shirts I can fit into my trunk, along with my jewelry-making supplies and guitars, of course.
And while I'm absolutely sure (well...pretty sure) this is the right move for me to make, I'm a little scared and anxious. I've had horror-story roommates in my past, stayed in studio apartments that actually caused my nice mormon girlfriends to break into tears out of terror (true story). I've poured money down the drain. I've made and broken important and meaningless friendships. Found jobs, lost jobs. Done all that, and the main thing I've learned is that: eventually the hard times get better, but there ARE hard times. I wanted to write a little "note-to-self" if you will, to read if I get lonely, sad, or am going through some tough times. I think that letter would go something like this:
I know you may be having a difficult time right now. Perhaps you are upset at something somebody said. Maybe you are upset at something you said. Maybe everything hasn't gone exactly as planned, but listen to me HERE and NOW because I am younger and less experienced then you: Don't take life so seriously. Don't let anything get you down. When you are around somebody enough, anybody, they are bound to get on your nerves, just like you are bound to get on theirs.
Remember what you wanted to accomplish when you made the journey down here? Remember that you fantasized about sweet tea, the sweltering Texas sun, and mouth-watering barbecue made the way that only Austin can make it? Remember how you left: hopeful and excited?
Accidents happen and "perfect" never does. You aren't the type to roll-over and give up. Get up, because you've got it pretty good.